PLEASE NEVER STOP

I'm a KC alumnus and came to US to pursue a degree in Electrical Engineering at University of Illinois Urbana Champaign in Fall 2008. I was on fire for God when I left Nigeria and was just waiting to explode for God in my campus. Prior to my coming I had seen tons of Christian organizations in my school online so was even more excited. However on arriving I realized lots of the Christian organizations were not as mature as any I knew  (cos I spent a semester in UNN before coming) or expected. I wanted to talk about the Holy Spirit and all but the Christians I knew seemed clueless. I remember I had to go and talk to one of the guys because I realized he was always uncomfortable around me. On talking to him he told me it's was cos he wasn't sure if I was going to ask or bring up on topic about God or the Holy Spirit or something..,..lol

I was looking for Pastor Chris' messages but didn't know where to get or listen to them but thank God I now know. I finally committed to a church called the Vineyard after my first semester cos they are the closest I have seen to their understanding of the things of God and the reality that the Holy Spirit dwells and works through and in us. I attended weekly bible studies and Sunday services and they were good but I wanted much much more.

After my freshman year, I was made a small group or bible study leader with my friend so we led small group in Fall '09 and also held a weekly prayer meeting for our campus. It was a blessing but after it I was almost getting burnt out cos it was as though I was pouring out into lives but had no source to receive. In addition to this, I was not doing excellently in my classes and had to retake two classes in my Spring semester. By Spring semester not only had the fire of God I had almost totally extinguished, I was almost running from God and was TIRED. I had tons and tons of doubts about almost everything and began to live in fear. Wanted to change my major, was in fear that I would be kicked out of Engineering(interestingly, a friend had a dream in my freshman year that I was kicked out of Engineering), felt I was not smart enough, was skeptical if my student visa will be renewed and was daily or should i say hourly negative(it was horrible).

Then there came your blogs. I don't even remember how I stumbled upon them but your blogs began to stir the Christ consciousness once more in me. I found myself instead of going to bed, staying up late to read your blogs and I remember checking or looking forward to Deji's blogs on Thursdays.

Now, I'm looking back and smiling, laughing and once more beginning to soar high in the things of God. I was not kicked out of Engineering cos God has called me to it, I went for my visa renewal towards the end of May and instead of an interview, I was gisting with the consular officer, I'm yearning to set curves for my coming classes cos the wisdom of God is in me and I shall be the head and not the tail, the first and not the last, I was born to win.